Lost and yet found

Oh dear. I'm lost and I mean lost. Lost in my house, lost in my car, and lost in my mind. Everything is messy and muddled and I can't seem to clear it all up. I have so much clutter going on that all I can think about it cleaning the mess. But where to start? As I slowly unbury myself I begin to see things in their true sense.

For instance, I found my scriptures. Covered in a layer of dust. Yes folks, dust. I sighed and couldn't remember the last time I read them since Babe was born. My heart felt sad and I flipped them open to catch a glimpse into a world of peace, surety, and order. Even though I was only able to catch a few verses my day seemed lighter. I resolved to do better. Then tomorrow came. Again and again. I found my scriptures again. In dust. This time I placed them next to my bed so I will see them more than once a week.

A few weeks ago we had our ward conference. It was wonderful. You see I get to have one of the most wonderful callings in my ward. Primary Pianist. Some of you are thinking that's lame but to hear children sing songs! It just melts my heart! As the one of the leaders from the Stake Presidency stood up to share a message with the children she became emotional. She told those beautiful children that she had been praying for them. Praying to know what Heavenly Father wanted them to know. She said that He wanted them to KNOW that HE loves them. BAM! I haven't felt the Spirit that HARD in a LONG time. Heavenly Father loves me. Amid all my faults and weaknesses He LOVES me. He knows that I'm busy with little ones showing them love and that time for myself has gone out the window. He knows that in my heart I strive to make the best of each day. He KNOWS I want to be good. He KNOWS me and wanted me to know that day that He LOVES me. That feeling stuck with me for several days. As I thought about that feeling I started to understand love for my little ones in a whole new way. It was like I discovered a brighter, warmer color of love that I never knew was there before and then I realized it. He loves me like that but with so must more intensity because He is perfect.

So I want all you young moms out there to know that our wonderful Heavenly Father loves YOU through all your efforts day in and day out. He knows you struggle but He also knows that you are trying. Remember that this is a short time in your mortal lives on this earth and to cherish the time you have with these little ones. But most of all remember you are a beloved daughter of a very loving Heavenly Father.